Thursday, May 17, 2012
Why I chose to be a theist
It didn’t happen in a day . I am confident and if not its due to my weakness and I very well know that if I am the only remote control of my happiness I can with dedicated efforts make this venture feasible one . And for this part I will not have to introduce a 3rd person or a god or an almighty to make this possible for me. If I am to build a 10 million dollar empire or create social equity in a particular area with my work and if I am determined for these then I may not be praying in front of god but relying all upon my dedication and If I lose its my mistake.
And if I lose always , still there's a hope within me because of only me that I can yet again bring a change , rectify further my mistakes , learn from them and give a best shot in next attempt.
Perhaps above assumption were true only under one condition if I am the only "I" . But the problem is I am bestowed with a wonderful family , best of the friends and few others as well and remaining humanity as well. I , studying in nit Calicut 3000km away from parents suddenly hear a news flash "earthquake of 7.2 rector scale hit the northern region of Bihar and some parts in west Bengal" . Then my younger brother is almost at the stage of formal education breakdown . And then there is Mumbai 26th November grievous blast revisited and so many.
I would have still preferred to be an atheist if I had not have been emotionally connected to them if the fear of death of my parents would not have shaken me a bit ,if the sullen dark clouds overcastting the future of my brother would not have bothered for me a second , if the deaths of thousands of humans would not have appeared as my own loss for the moment at least.
And hence I am a theist for I need this virtual pillar to hold my hand amidst all the troubles . I mean troubles which are out of my remote control . I cant control the death of my parents during an earthquake , I cant tame my brother to work sincerely for his future , I cant always stop the terrorist to enter my country . And hence I need a pillar to support by , I need a word to chant , the unseen to whom I can pray when I am in despair when people I love are in despair for I can control only mine .
May that be ,so called god or almighty be the flask full of my own faith or trust but being a theist only makes this flask visible .
And it will be too arrogant of myself if I still give credit to the pillar or flask or the god for only taking care of my loved once , and hence it makes me a complete theist or at least till I find some other theory to defy this.