It didn’t happen in
a day . I am confident and if not its due to my weakness and I very well know
that if I am the only remote control of my happiness I can with dedicated
efforts make this venture feasible one .
And for this part I will not have to introduce a 3rd person or a god or an
almighty to make this possible for me.
If I am to build a 10 million dollar empire or create social equity in a
particular area with my work and if I am
determined for these then I may not be praying in front of god but relying all
upon my dedication and If I lose its my mistake.
And if I lose always
, still there's a hope within me because of only me that I can yet again bring a
change , rectify further my mistakes , learn from them and give a best shot in
next attempt.
Perhaps above
assumption were true only under one condition if I am the only "I" . But the problem is I am
bestowed with a wonderful family , best of the friends and few others as well
and remaining humanity as well. I ,
studying in nit Calicut 3000km away from parents suddenly hear a news flash "earthquake
of 7.2 rector scale hit the northern region of Bihar and some parts in west
Bengal" . Then my younger brother is almost at the stage of formal education breakdown . And then there is Mumbai 26th November grievous blast
revisited and so many.
I would have still
preferred to be an atheist if I had not have been emotionally connected to them
if the fear of death of my parents would not have shaken me a bit ,if the
sullen dark clouds overcastting the future of my brother would not have
bothered for me a second , if the deaths of thousands of humans would not have
appeared as my own loss for the moment at least.
And hence I am a theist for I need this virtual pillar to hold my hand amidst
all the troubles . I mean troubles which are out of my remote control . I cant
control the death of my parents during an earthquake , I cant tame my brother
to work sincerely for his future , I cant always stop the terrorist to enter my
country . And hence I need a pillar to support by , I need a word to chant ,
the unseen to whom I can pray when I am in despair when people I love are in
despair for I can control only mine .
May that be ,so
called god or almighty be the flask full
of my own faith or trust but being a theist only makes this flask visible .
And it will be too
arrogant of myself if I still give credit to the pillar or flask or the
god for only taking care of my loved once , and hence it makes me a complete
theist or at least till I find some other theory to defy this.
"I would have still preferred to be an atheist if I had not have been emotionally connected to them if the fear of death of my parents would not have shaken me a bit"
ReplyDeleteIt makes atheists sound as if they are emotionless!
" I need a pillar to support by , I need a word to chant , the unseen to whom I can pray when I am in despair when people I love are in despair for I can control only mine ."
ReplyDeleteTheism is not a doctorine that forsees a belief in some one you fear but in one you can hold to when you fear and then you forget all the fears.....
so well said!
ok then think for those who care for u and who u care as well
ReplyDeleteI liked the last part when you bring God not as a logical output of some other crap what many do but rather a beautiful creation of the human mind and it's emotions... I liked the way you used the analogy of the pillar and hold on to it... nicely done;-)
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ReplyDeleteAs long are you remain human that's good enough.
ReplyDeletei would still lyk to be theist.....only because, i ultimately believe in god & before any action, i just belive in myself nd also believe positively that god z with me...only due to this i get i get natural confidence in me....i know it totally depends on me whats the level of my will power & dedication towards my action but.........nd i also favour you that....god z totally resposible for taking care of my loved one when i m helpess to care for them.......
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