They just don’t exist

The world and I am the only one

The trees , the sea , the mountains , the clouds , the moon

And am the only one walking , jumping , dancing , laughing, singing

The winter ,the summer , the spring , the rain 

Am the only one shivering , wetting , sweating

The jesus , the allah , the vishnu , the amma

I am the only one praying , beseeching ,wishing

The love , the beauty , the perfection , the kindness , the passion ,

I am the only one loving , staring , becoming , bestowing , living

The world and I am the only one.

The music , the words , the painting , the books

I am the only one listening  , speaking , drawing , reading.

The mum , the dad , the brother , the sister , the friends , the special friends

But I am the only one loving  ,embracing , hugging .

The fear , the hatred , the jealousy , the sex , the death

But I am the only one hating , envying , longing sex , dying.

The men , women , children , the old , the all

And I am the only one living because "THEY JUST DON’T EXIST "

The world and I am the only one.

what i actually meant ..that is y i was till now not able to give my 100% coz of fear , what others think , criticism , hypocrisy ..so y not let i  live as if they just dont exist

The "topic " is inspired by the words of a great architectural engineer Krishna Rao  jaisim during his conversation with deepraj jha.  Word was "they just don’t exist"

Greatest illusion-time

    I tried to remember if is this my 1st new year celebration here at NITC ,then I shook my head  , went through my college pics and soon I got convinced I was once again beaten up by the pace and nature time and once again time made me to affirm my views about its most illusionistic behavior.

Thanks to the "change "  because it only makes me realize this time exists  and thanks to the nature for it always changes without ever turning back. 

My discovery with ocean

Ocean where I realize infinity does exist

Ocean where I am hinted of my limitation

Ocean where opened eyes gives more  relaxation then being closed

Ocean where I discover music in the midst of the noise

Ocean where i dare to see  sky in my reach 

Ocean where i discover success need not be always attributed to how high you fly rather how deep you are

Ocean where I recognize the boon , even in being solitary

Ocean where i realize the depth within and depth outside

Ocean where i smell the odorless

Ocean where i find concept of time fake

Ocean where I see the narrow lining binding and yet separating life and death

Ocean where I wish to ,love to , cherish to go again

Ocean "a heaven in disguise"………………………….

31st december "AN EXPERIENCE"

Woke up late but was fortunate enough to get my token as g2 ( thanks to the distributer )soon my chance to get "amma darshan" came there .I was  on the stage sitting on the chair and in just few minutes  I would be getting the hug of the beloved of many amma. But till now I didn’t get any special feel .though  I knew she is a great spiritualist but rarely that word was  fully grasped by my intellect or consciousness. Well I had heard all start crying just before meeting amma atleast they cry while being hugged but till now I could find no symptoms of my tears. Then suddenly something got triggered  and I begin concentrating , recapitulating all my weakness and sometimes when I become so desperate with them.  I started praying for these weakness to die away as I get closer to my amma darshan or her hug.  Finally I had my hug , I told my weakness but I don’t know what she did reply but instead I  got  to know I had fever , which surprisingly started just after I got this message atleast I felt like so.

Then just before leaving this place I met this brazillian guy who seemed to be lost into meditation and when I checked him up he had tears in his eyes and he seemed a lot tensed then on asking his story he told he came here with his sister and wanted meet amma as he had heard lot about her . He said he was fed up of always partying , drinking and taking drugs on smallest of the occasions so this time he thought to chose the difference. He had been to "wrishikesh"  and "dharmshala " before.
And then came the time for me to leave to my alma matter nitc. But suddenly I didn’t know this would be the answer to my first weakness which soon I understood , I almost had put my steps into bus (the last bus to nitc) then I thought 31st december on the bus will be so horrible ,  and hope of someone that I may see again and this time surely will say the words kept me alive and put my  steps back . I even tried searching that one  for the while and was almost firmed to talk this time.  Unfortunately till now no signs of that someone. Still these things happens and  I didn’t know that these incidences will help me reveal my answers which were buried for years. What a unique way . That’s the positive aspect of visiting these places ( though I landed up here accidently with purely other intentions). Feeling awesome , felt music of my heart (laughter) like never before  had dj like never where we danced for ourselves in pure consciousness not to show and in semi conscious state. And I had never done this , sat at  stretch of almost 4 hours with slightest of the movements and slightest of alien thoughts coming into my mind.

And here again unexpected made my day memorable , a day to cherish for life time , a new year celebration I shall never forget and hopefully next year again I come here to dance to sing to  enjoy to live the moment.