I have realized
lately , the most difficult task for me to decide is which group I belong. Even
a bigger challenge remains to keep
myself unbiased of so many things happening around and to know why I need a
group to prove my truth
. The more I think I
am unbiased about my choice the more biased views seem to become. I am 22 now
and already have seen so many different genres of thoughts and ideology .
Recent elections and dramatic rise of AAP has suddenly created new waves of
thought. But quicker are the people who already know which poles they belong to. And I
am very well part of that magnet and certainly not the one whose thoughts
changes but rather looks for those
evidence which only makes my decision to chose a particular pole even stronger
without ever trying to look how world looks from the opposite side.
Consequently we have people who talk to us good on our face but in their mind they had
already assigned us the particular location. The biggest of challenge for our
country is not the universal acceptance of secularism but the challenge to know
the real truth which already has the previous criteria imbibed in it. And same is with me. And hence is my
challenge to break this cage.
Inspired by Gandhi's
talisman of introspection leaves me sometimes in even wider range of doubts.
But atleast one
thing is very clear , truth is one of the toughest thing to discover for me.
Truth , atleast to me ,don’t seem to
come spontaneously may be because my subconscious is too much damaged by
deliberate biased thoughts of surroundings. Truth still seems a distant
destination for me , searching truth may perhaps make me break my own glass keeping pillars of
thoughts stacked on each other since last 22 years. Ofcourse some of those
pieces of truth might be correct but for a stack to function they have to be
aligned correctly.
Which again leads me
to believe even more strongly in god because he is the only bridge between me
and truth . And somewhere I have read hope never lets you down . And I will
keep questioning my truth and at the same time my partial biased flickering mind
will keep saying wrong words. But I assure you they will be more refined then
yesterday.
